To be near home

今天破天荒看了生活时尚的心灵花园.
虽然和妈妈不在同一个城市, 但是也许正和妈妈看同一个节目呢.
这样就让我感觉很温暖.
突然佩服妈妈. 她其实很想我. 可是, 有更重要的考虑, 她就可以隐藏起自己的感受.
i know she is right. but i don't wanna.
长大真的意味着不再任性, 生活让我们不再随心所欲.
本来,随心所欲就不是一个很好的概念吧.
原来爸爸是无条件的宠我, 妈妈则是更有主张的女人.

listening to "The APL song" of Black Eye peas, really gives me the feeling.

A version of my ghetto where life felt for real
Some would call it hell but to me it was heaven
God gave me the grace, amazin' ways of living
How would you feel if you had to catch your meal?
Build a hut to live and to eat and chill in.
Having to pump the water outta the ground
The way we put it down utilizing what is around
Like land for farming, river for fishing
Everyone helpin' each other whenever they can
We makin' it happen, from nothin' to somethin'
That's how we be survivin' back in my homeland

Yo, its been a while but...
I been back home to my homeland, (check it out) to see what's going on
Man it feels good to be back at home
And it's been a decade, on the journey all alone
I was fourteen when I first left Philippines
I've been away half my life, but it felt like a day
To be next to my mom with her home cooked meal
Meant I felt complete, my emotions I feel!
Now life has changed for me in the U.S
But back at home man, life was a mess...
I guess sometimes life's stresses gets you down
On your knees, oh brother I wish I could have helped you out...

That's how i feel about my home. 金窝银窝不如自己的狗窝.